Haven't updated in a while...... I dunno what the hell do to anymore.....he knows I love him and he says he loves me too, but we can't move on and be together again.... What the hell do you do when you feel like theres no reason to live anymore because you don't have the one you love anymore.....I almost killed my self a few times last week...but didn't because of friends...especially Fiona... She looks up to me and I don't want her to end her life because I was stupid and ended mine.... I also didn't do it because of Jeff...He told me taht if he saw a scar that he wouldn't talk to me and thats the last thing I want right now... My world is falling apart and I don't know what the fuck to do about it! Can somebody please realize taht I need help and try to actually help me out..... As if my life wasn't shittty already I found out that I have mono...my doctor wants me to be careful because when you have mono your splean gets bigger and if it gets hit at the right angle it can burst...... This is wrong and everything, but I'm hoping sometime soon that someone will punch me there and I'll go to the hospital....Then maybe people will start caring about me.... I feel alone in the world and it seems like no one gives a flying fuck about it!! YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK YOU ALL!!!! | 
